Fic: A Triangle (is the strongest shape)
OaT threesome
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I have finished that Once A Thief threesome story I was working on!

It turned out to be 70,000 words long, and plotty and angsty and complicated. Which is par for the course for my fics, I guess. It was a whole lot of fun to write, especially with [personal profile] yourlibrarian along for the ride as my beta reader. She caught my awkward wordings and typos, helped me bounce around ideas about tricky plot developments, and made me totally re-write the ending when my first draft sucked. Plus, it was encouraging to know that at least one person other than myself would read the thing. Thanks, [personal profile] yourlibrarian!

I've posted it on AO3. You'll find more detailed tagging and content notes there. Here's the link:

A Triangle (is the strongest shape)

And, if you'd like a fantastic fanvid to get you in the mood, check out The Frug by [personal profile] some_stars, and remind yourself that Mac, Li Ann and Vic are awesome (individually but most especially together).


I have a couple of other notes, but I'll put them behind a cut.

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new Once A Thief fic: teaser
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A couple of weeks ago I mentioned that I had started writing a new Once A Thief fic. So, I thought I'd post an update on that: I have been working on it obsessively ever since, and the thing is now 35,000 words long (and not finished yet).

I'm having so much fun!

I expect I'll return to the Buffyverse sometime soon, but right now I am just having a blast immersing myself in the wacky world of this strange Canadian action/drama that aired for only one season in the late 1990's, and which propelled me personally into the universe of fanfic.

Speaking of which: it is so weird to be writing a story set in 1999 and realizing that it's a historical period and that I have to be careful to avoid anachronisms. I remember 1999 like it was yesterday, you guys! And yet the characters live in a world without smartphones. They are secret agents working for a Shadowy Government Agency, and when they need to drive somewhere in rural Ontario they pull out a big paper road map.

Anyway ... I'm not going to be posting this story as a work in progress, but I decided I'd like to post a teaser for the handful of you out there who expressed interest in this project.

Notes: This story is a love letter to OaT's OT3: it will be a Mac/Vic/Li Ann story. It's just going to take me a while to get them there.

There are no content warnings for this chapter, though there will eventually be some for the story as a whole.

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Fic update: Gently Down the Stream (chapter 5 and epilogue)
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Here it is: the conclusion! I hope you like it.

And if you were waiting for the whole thing to be posted so you could read it in one shot, now's the time!

Thanks once again to everyone who took the time to comment on earlier chapters—your comments made me happy. And a big thanks to [personal profile] yourlibrarian, beta reader extraordinaire!

Title: Gently Down the Stream
Length: about 25,000 words total; this update is about 5400 words.
Pairing: Spike/Buffy along with other canonical pairings, but this isn't really a shippy story.
Warnings: Canon-typical violence; almost no sex.
Cross-posting: Dreamwidth, LiveJournal and AO3; read wherever you're most comfortable.


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Fandom of one?
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Today, gloriously, I had much of an afternoon and evening free, and I decided to spend it writing fic.

I wrote 2700 words of a Once A Thief fic. (Mac/Vic/Li Ann threesome, if you're wondering. Shaping up to be long and plotty and angsty, in the way my fics tend to.)

It was very satisfying. Once A Thief was my first fandom, the one I imprinted on. (See this post for details.) As a fandom, though, it is utterly, totally dead. Rigor mortis set in many years ago. So, supposing I finish this fic, it's not entirely clear that anyone but me will want to read it.

The way I'm feeling now, though, is that I'll finish it anyway. (We'll see how it goes, as my time and energy wax and wane!)

Hm. I guess I'm just posting to say: I think I have now clearly established that I write for an audience of me. When there turn out to be other people who want to read my work too, that's a super extra ice cream bonus!

PS: If by some weird chance anybody sees this post who would be interested in the story, do let me know! It would be encouraging.

PPS: People following my story Gently Down the Stream, do not fear. The last chapters are complete, and will be posted on schedule next Friday.

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Fic update: Gently Down the Stream (chapter 4 of 6)
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You know, all day I've been feeling excited in anticipation of posting this chapter. I love having fic to share again!

By the way, I'll be posting chapters 5 and 6 together next week, since chapter 6 is actually just a short-ish epilogue.


So ... that scream? Yep, that was Willow.

Title: Gently Down the Stream
Length: about 25,000 words total; this chapter is about 5700 words.
Pairing: Spike/Buffy along with other canonical pairings, but this isn't really a shippy story.
Warnings: Canon-typical violence; almost no sex.
Cross-posting: Dreamwidth, LiveJournal and AO3; read wherever you're most comfortable.


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Fic update: Gently Down the Stream (chapter 3 of 6)
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Time for the next chapter! Yay!

A collective thanks, by the way, to all of the readers who have taken the time to comment on the individual chapter updates so far; you make this extra fun for me. :-)

In this chapter, Wesley arrives, Angel's sanity is questioned (again), and the search for Willow gets serious.

Title: Gently Down the Stream
Length: about 25,000 words total; this chapter is about 4300 words.
Pairing: Spike/Buffy along with other canonical pairings, but this isn't really a shippy story.
Warnings: Canon-typical violence; almost no sex.
Cross-posting: Dreamwidth, LiveJournal and AO3; read wherever you're most comfortable.


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Fic update: Gently Down the Stream (chapter 2 of 6)
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shadowscast
Yay, it's Friday night and it's time to post the next chapter!

In this chapter, somebody goes missing, somebody comes to town, and shocking discoveries are made.

Title: Gently Down the Stream
Length: about 25,000 words total; this chapter is about 5000 words.
Pairing: Spike/Buffy along with other canonical pairings, but this isn't really a shippy story.
Warnings: Canon-typical violence; almost no sex.
Cross-posting: Dreamwidth, LiveJournal and AO3; read wherever you're most comfortable.


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New fic: Gently Down the Stream (chapter 1 of 6)
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Guess what? I have new fic to post! Woohoo!

Okay, let me explain more fully: I wrote 90% of this story a couple of years ago, but stalled on the ending. Since I already had That Good Night sitting online as an unfinished WIP, I refrained from posting any of the new story. But in the past fortnight, after finally tying up my Fragments-verse loose ends (more or less), I got inspired to actually finish this other story. And now it is indeed finished, and ready for posting!

Since it's likely that it will be a good long time before I have another story to post after this one, I decided to spread out my fun a bit, by posting a chapter a week. There are actually six chapters and I'll post them over the next five weeks (the sixth chapter is a short-ish epilogue and I'll post it at the same time as chapter five). I'll be posting on the weekends, always sometime between Friday night and Sunday night in my time zone. If you'd rather wait and read the whole thing in one go, just check back here around April 20th.

Comments on the individual chapters are absolutely welcome! (I may or may not manage to answer them in a timely fashion, depending on life.)

This story is technically Spike/Buffy, but it's not particularly shippy. Mainly the plot is the point.

I'm warning for canon-typical violence and basically no sex. (No sex, you have been warned!) If you look at my post to AO3 there are more detailed tags, including a list of dramatis personae, but I won't list them here in case you'd rather be a bit more surprised.

Many, many thanks to the awesome Yourlibrarian, who not only beta-read this story but also helped me hammer out its plot in the first place.

So ... on with the fic!


Title: Gently Down the Stream
Length: about 25,000 words total; this chapter is about 4000 words.
Cross-posting: Dreamwidth, LiveJournal and AO3; read wherever you're most comfortable.

Summary:

Here's Buffy's life in a nutshell: dead mom, dead-beat dad, dead end job, dependent sister. She's pulling double shifts at the Double Meat Palace to make ends meet.

And yet, she's actually pretty happy! She's got supportive friends and a sexy English boyfriend. Her life is full of love, and frankly after that accident last year and the coma, she's grateful just to be alive.

But then one of her friends goes missing, and Buffy's peaceful life in Sunnydale begins to unravel in frightening and truly unexpected ways. Soon she will have to question everything she thinks she knows about her friends, her lover, her world ... and herself.


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That Good Night (the end)
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Wow. Where did that last five years go?

I last updated this story in early 2009, and even before that my writing had slowed to a trickle, just a chapter a year for several years. But I never quite admitted to myself that I had abandoned this story; I kept thinking "someday, maybe, I'll finish it."

I have finally admitted to myself that I'm not going to finish it.

And having done that, in some sense, I finished it.

Here's what I'm posting tonight:

First, what I'm calling chapter 14, which was originally meant to be the first half of chapter 14 and which has actually been sitting on my hard drive for the past five years.

Second, a summary of what would have happened in the rest of the story, and indeed in the rest of the Fragments-verse, had I ever managed to write it. I wrote this summary in the last two days, based on my notes from 2005-2009 and on the version of the story which has lived only in my head for the past five years. This summary ... well, it turned out to be 4000 words long. It is not a story, but in the end it took on some story-like qualities. You'll see.

I'll start with my "previously" bit, which might be helpful if you haven't looked at this story in five years.

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And now, the conclusion!

Title: That Good Night (parts 14 and 15 of 15, more or less)
Rating: NC-17 overall (barely)
Pairing: Spike/Xander, ensemble
Summary: A couple of years post-NFA, Spike is human, and it isn’t working out so well. He and Xander are currently in Sao Paulo, where Willow has just had a baby and a new vampire problem is looming.
Warnings: For earlier parts, I warned: "This story will get dark at times. Definitely angsty, h/c with lots of hurt. Character death will most definitely be threatened, and I'd rather not say what comes of it (though if you're terribly worried, ask me privately)." To this part, I append the warning that the author stopped writing this story before it was finished, and then five years later sort of summarized how the story would have ended if she'd ever finished writing it.
Length: 1000 words for chapter fourteen. 4000 words for the ending summary. 49,000 words for the whole story from the beginning.
Disclaimer: They're not mine, and I'm not making any money.


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Huge thanks to yourlibrarian, who beta-read this part back in 2009, who over the course of the beta-reading became a friend, and who still to this very day says encouraging things about my prospects for writing more Buffyverse fic!

And now ... the end. Such as it is. This 'verse began in fragments and it will end in fragments. Here's what would have happened, plot thread by plot thread.

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And that's how the story would have ended. If I'd ever written it.

So, wow, now that that's over ... I'd like to thank everyone who ever sent me encouraging feedback over all these years. And I'd like to apologize to everyone who read the story in hopes that it would have a proper ending sometime in their, or my, lifetime. I really am sorry! I hope that if you're still around, and still care about this story, at least this ending-ish thing will give you some closure.

ETA: I've now uploaded this story, in all its quasi-finished imperfection, to AO3. So, if that's a more comfortable place for you to read, feel free to go there! That Good Night on AO3

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Vid rec: The Ballad of Wesley Crusher
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Oh wow, it's been nearly 3 years since I last posted. And the last post I made was a vid rec too.

Maybe a quick re-introduction is in order: Hi, I'm Shadowscast. I used to be in fandom. Then I had a kid.

(It's not just the kid; it's the kid and the job and the two and a half hours of daily commuting, along with the fact that at age 36 I really can't function anymore on less than eight hours of sleep.)

Anyway, I've gone from being actively fannish to being rather more passively fannish. I go on the occasional fic-reading binge in one fandom or another, mostly after getting caught up on some show several months (or years) after everybody else. I've made a real-life friend who's fannish, and she's really into vids, so I watch vids sometimes with her.

And tonight I decided to browse the most recent Festivids entries, and I found this one that really spoke to me, and I decided: hey, why not make a post?

The vid in question is The Ballad of Wesley Crusher, and it's by Jetpack Monkey.

Here's the comment I made at the post:

Oh man, this vid gave me feelings.

So let me just say, I was 13 in 1990, and nerdy and unpopular and lonely, and I loved Wesley Crusher. I fantasized about living on the Enterprise and being his friend and having adventures together. I didn't know about fandom yet, so I didn't know that Wesley was generally hated—I found out years later, and was surprised and saddened but at least by then I was old enough and had grown into myself enough that I didn't take it as (much of) a personal blow.

And now I'm 36, and I have perspective, and I understand about stories, and I understand why people hated Wesley.

This vid makes my heart ache for him, and for my 13-year-old self. The sweaters, oh lord the sweaters.

And I am so grateful for the story you tell here, of his arc, of how Starfleet really wasn't the right place for him at all, and how the ending, his strange departure from the show (which I had no idea how to parse at all, when it aired) can be read as a coming-of-age story, an escape from a life which is unsuitable to one which is a much better fit. (And I bet there are an awful lot of us in fandom who can identify with that.)

So, thanks for much for sharing this vid! I'm going to go watch it again now.


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